Sunday, September 23, 2012

This face.



This face saves me. When I want to scream, I look at this face. Pure joy. I love this boy. He can be so sweet, amazing, kind, and fun. That little nose and that bright smile get me every time. His eyes sparkle with curiosity and excitement. He laughs and giggles and screams with delight. This is the Austin that I love so dearly and want to squeeze tight and never let go. But sadly that is not the Austin that I am with every day, every minute of the 14 hours of each day that we are together. It is such a good thing that his face is so stinking cute because that is what reminds me of how much I love him, no matter how much he drives me crazy. No matter how long he whined that day. No matter how many times he hit, pushed, and picked on his sister. He is still my sweet little boy. And I love him. Oh how I love him. But sometimes, well let's be honest.....a lot of times....I have to stop and just take a minute to look at his face. Then I am reminded why I do this thing I do. It is hard. Oh so very hard. But he is my reason.

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  1. What a great post, Awbree! You have an amazing family and you are doing such a good job at balancing all that this thing called life throws at you. Great to see you are back!
    Stop by my spot, www.ritzandraves.blogspot.com, when you get a minute. I'd love to feature Tiny Turtles :)

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  2. It's nice that you posted this. I know we had this conversation and it was so nice to hear that I wasn't alone. I'm not a terrible mother for wanting just a moment of silence. You do have a beautiful family and I feel so blessed to have met you. Keep the posts coming... I love all the great ideas you have my crafty friend.

    Much Love

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    1. Thanks Amber. I really appreciate that! I think as moms we often feel the same struggles but don't want to talk about the "bad". Glad I could give you a bit of comfort :)

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